Life & Death

First of all a warning because this post is going to be a bit depressing...

Yesterday my uncle died. He had been sick for a while and we all knew this was coming. It still came as a shock, as death always does. Him and his wife only recently lost their grandson to a train accident. She has had more than one difficult period in her life and I'm amazed at how she's holding up. Unfortunately most of my family lives in Iceland and the last two times I went to Iceland it was because of a funeral. I probably won't be able to attend my uncle's funeral, next to having two jobs I also have school. Not to mention the fact that I don't have enough money to pay for my ticket. My sister and my mother will be going but I feel guilty about not being able to pay my respects to someone I knew so well when I was younger. I'm sorry and I hope wherever you are you can read this.
We love you.

Love from Saskia

Hugs

I told a couple of teachers about my situation and they've all been incredibly supportive. One of my teachers took me to the hallway and actually hugged me. Every time I look sad my friends will just start hugging me and this gives me more strength than you can imagine (virtual and telepathic hugs are also greatly appreciated). Sometimes I wonder how I survived my year in Japan without hugs. So I would like thank everyone for their support and the unannounced hugs I've been getting. They're my fuel right now. If you see me, hug me whenever you can and I don't really care whether it's appropriate or not.

Love from Cindy :3

Waiting Again

Today is my fathers birthday! He had to go to the hospital for some tests and scans. Afterwards the doctor talked to us about what exactly was going to happen from now on. We didn't get any good news. There is something on the scan that isn't right and they have to test to see if it's part of the disease. If it isn't it will continue as planned and he will be operated and have radiation therapy. If it is they won't operate and there's no chance of a full recovery. So now we're waiting yet again for some tests and results...

My Chemistry test today didn't go very well. My cold is getting worse and I had trouble concentrating. Besides I'm not good at chemistry to begin with.

Good thing tonight I'll be going to a concert of Scouting for Girls!
The tickets are a birthday present from a very good friend of mine.

Sometimes I sit in the bus and I play all these different scenarios in my head. Imagine riding a bus that is driving next to water. An accident occurs and the bus is driven into the river. You're one of the few conscious people left and you have the chance to save maybe one or two other people.
Who do you save? I wonder, I look around the bus and try to decide these things. Because all the people I see are complete strangers the only thing I can do is think about who has the highest survival chance and choose the people that would die without me but live with my help. What would you do?

Love from Cindy :3