Social Contact

Social contact is hard. Lately, whenever I am in an environment that requires socializing, I catch myself thinking that it's tiring. I love spending time with my friends, don't get me wrong, but I feel like I have made enough friends for a while. Maintaining a friendship is hard work and the more friends you have the more time and effort you need to put into them to make them worthwhile. One of my friends, that I consider one of my closest friends, always gets excited at the idea of new friends. While all I can think is "It's nice to meet all these people but I hope they're not expecting me to stay in contact." Facebook has made things more difficult in a way. To me it's like constantly being reminded of a number of people in your list of friends that you feel guilty about not staying in touch with. But I refuse to make any friendship I have feel like an obligation. I may have some friends I see rarely and some that I see a few times a year but I never feel obligated to see them and I truly enjoy spending time with them. My friends mean the world to me and I couldn't imagine my life without them. Especially now, thank you so much.

My father's tests came out negative and this means they will be operating him on the 21st. I was supposed to leave for Germany on the 14th this month but seeing how bad my timing is I will be leaving a bit later. My father has been training a lot to get in shape for the operation but he still hasn't given up on smoking! You would think that if you're life depended on it (more directly than usual) quitting would be a small price to pay...

Oh and one tip. Do not listen to 'I just had sex' while your mother is in the same room she will comment on it and it will be awkward.

Love from Cindy :3

Waiting Again

Today is my fathers birthday! He had to go to the hospital for some tests and scans. Afterwards the doctor talked to us about what exactly was going to happen from now on. We didn't get any good news. There is something on the scan that isn't right and they have to test to see if it's part of the disease. If it isn't it will continue as planned and he will be operated and have radiation therapy. If it is they won't operate and there's no chance of a full recovery. So now we're waiting yet again for some tests and results...

My Chemistry test today didn't go very well. My cold is getting worse and I had trouble concentrating. Besides I'm not good at chemistry to begin with.

Good thing tonight I'll be going to a concert of Scouting for Girls!
The tickets are a birthday present from a very good friend of mine.

Sometimes I sit in the bus and I play all these different scenarios in my head. Imagine riding a bus that is driving next to water. An accident occurs and the bus is driven into the river. You're one of the few conscious people left and you have the chance to save maybe one or two other people.
Who do you save? I wonder, I look around the bus and try to decide these things. Because all the people I see are complete strangers the only thing I can do is think about who has the highest survival chance and choose the people that would die without me but live with my help. What would you do?

Love from Cindy :3