Chaos

Today was just another day at work except that 'cute coffee guy' has changed into 'scary mafia guy'. I nearly burst into laughter when he greeted me and I realized that he was this person in a suit, wearing sunglasses and had enough gel in his hair to make Elvis jealous.

The urge to write something has been growing for weeks now, but since there have been so many things going on in my life I just didn't know where to start. First of all congratulations to my father and his new wife! The wedding was lovely and everyone seemed to have a great time.

I finally passed my exams. I didn't realize how badly I doubted myself until I felt the joy of finally graduating High School. I seriously wonder what I would have done if I had failed. Anyway no need to ponder on that since this is a joyous moment. Next week will be the graduation ceremony and I will finally be handed that piece of paper that gives me the freedom to study whatever I want.

I bought a car! A blue Peugeot 205, it's my new little baby. (Actually my father paid me back what the car had cost me as a graduation gift! Yay more freedom!) Since the new car I have been driving more but my sense of direction isn't getting any better. So I did some calculations and came to the conclusion that buying a GPS system would be cheaper than getting lost all the time. I'm hoping for it to arrive this week!

Now for a tiny bit of bad news, they found some 'activity' in my father's intestines and they will be testing him further before telling us whether he will be operated or put into palliative care. I'm just hoping it's nothing once again so we can finally have something to work with instead of this constant insecurity.

Love from Cindy :3

Life & Death

First of all a warning because this post is going to be a bit depressing...

Yesterday my uncle died. He had been sick for a while and we all knew this was coming. It still came as a shock, as death always does. Him and his wife only recently lost their grandson to a train accident. She has had more than one difficult period in her life and I'm amazed at how she's holding up. Unfortunately most of my family lives in Iceland and the last two times I went to Iceland it was because of a funeral. I probably won't be able to attend my uncle's funeral, next to having two jobs I also have school. Not to mention the fact that I don't have enough money to pay for my ticket. My sister and my mother will be going but I feel guilty about not being able to pay my respects to someone I knew so well when I was younger. I'm sorry and I hope wherever you are you can read this.
We love you.

Love from Saskia

Hugs

I told a couple of teachers about my situation and they've all been incredibly supportive. One of my teachers took me to the hallway and actually hugged me. Every time I look sad my friends will just start hugging me and this gives me more strength than you can imagine (virtual and telepathic hugs are also greatly appreciated). Sometimes I wonder how I survived my year in Japan without hugs. So I would like thank everyone for their support and the unannounced hugs I've been getting. They're my fuel right now. If you see me, hug me whenever you can and I don't really care whether it's appropriate or not.

Love from Cindy :3