Social contact is hard. Lately, whenever I am in an environment that requires socializing, I catch myself thinking that it's tiring. I love spending time with my friends, don't get me wrong, but I feel like I have made enough friends for a while. Maintaining a friendship is hard work and the more friends you have the more time and effort you need to put into them to make them worthwhile. One of my friends, that I consider one of my closest friends, always gets excited at the idea of new friends. While all I can think is "It's nice to meet all these people but I hope they're not expecting me to stay in contact." Facebook has made things more difficult in a way. To me it's like constantly being reminded of a number of people in your list of friends that you feel guilty about not staying in touch with. But I refuse to make any friendship I have feel like an obligation. I may have some friends I see rarely and some that I see a few times a year but I never feel obligated to see them and I truly enjoy spending time with them. My friends mean the world to me and I couldn't imagine my life without them. Especially now, thank you so much.
My father's tests came out negative and this means they will be operating him on the 21st. I was supposed to leave for Germany on the 14th this month but seeing how bad my timing is I will be leaving a bit later. My father has been training a lot to get in shape for the operation but he still hasn't given up on smoking! You would think that if you're life depended on it (more directly than usual) quitting would be a small price to pay...
Oh and one tip. Do not listen to 'I just had sex' while your mother is in the same room she will comment on it and it will be awkward.
Love from Cindy :3
